Dear god pls tell me more.
That is so ridiculously attractive.
....just saying.
I HAVE A PROBLEM.
tell me about your R.I.G.
wat
Literally had to defriend this guy because he isn't responding to any of my messages. Its weird too because I thought he was pretty cool, then he was literally just like "stahp" and hasn't even talked to me since.
wtf.
Am I a bad person or something? I don't even know what I did.
Remember that one time I rapped?
Can't believe its not butter. Never had a real supper.
Taking food in a tupper. Starving in the summer.
Taking food in a tupper. Starving in the summer.
Lots of Discontent
Classes start in a few days. Not super excite about this semester especially with the introduction of a Calc 2 based class, but....ehhhhh. Its not gonna be super fun.
All the regular group is back in town, but I think its run its course. I've this horrid habit of changing my acquaintances every few months, even quicker nonIRL. Let's see how long this lasts....
Happy belated birthday. I miss you.
S&M isn't appealing, at all.
But, holy shit, a guy that takes control and makes you feel small.
I just---
Its a turn-on.
Liars are hot. People that scheme and concoct really elaborate plans are so.ridiculously attractive.
Case in point: every single actor from every heist movie ever.
When the twist shows, I sploosh.
Alan Tudyk be more attractive pls.
Like srs. How is your face even made?
TELL ME YOUR SECRETS WHILE I LICK YOUR *ahem*
I mean, I just want to know your thought process, is all~
TELL ME YOUR SECRETS WHILE I LICK YOUR *ahem*
I mean, I just want to know your thought process, is all~
Dem Feels
God, I missed talking to him. He's the reason I love going back home. He makes home, "home".
I missed talking to him so much.
Visually, he's nothing special. A six on the best of days.
BUT DEAR SWEET BABY AANG, HIS MIND IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
I made a very special point to isolate him and just talk, just so that I could listen to him talk.
His voice.
His speech patterns.
His thoughts.
All of it. I love it.
Yeah, love. Its attractive.
I remember when I used to hesitate the use that word to say how I felt about him (AND I STILL DO) just because I was scared that he would know that I actually meant it. I worried he would notice that I changed my voice when I mumbled "I love you so much" and realize its was different from when I said that to everyone else. I worried he would notice I meant it.
He'll always be out of my reach, though. I ruined it.
I ruin everything. I don't think its subconsciously on purpose, but I sabotage it.
For now, I'll just stand on the sidelines and watch. You know, in a totally non-creepy way, of course.
I'M NOT WEIRD.
I missed talking to him so much.
Visually, he's nothing special. A six on the best of days.
BUT DEAR SWEET BABY AANG, HIS MIND IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
I made a very special point to isolate him and just talk, just so that I could listen to him talk.
His voice.
His speech patterns.
His thoughts.
All of it. I love it.
Yeah, love. Its attractive.
I remember when I used to hesitate the use that word to say how I felt about him (AND I STILL DO) just because I was scared that he would know that I actually meant it. I worried he would notice that I changed my voice when I mumbled "I love you so much" and realize its was different from when I said that to everyone else. I worried he would notice I meant it.
He'll always be out of my reach, though. I ruined it.
I ruin everything. I don't think its subconsciously on purpose, but I sabotage it.
For now, I'll just stand on the sidelines and watch. You know, in a totally non-creepy way, of course.
I'M NOT WEIRD.
dat caaaaaaahr
Fuck. The worst thing about going home is family. Not the first five minutes, when you're happy to be in a familiar situation, its the second hour when your mother starts probing you about your love life and your failures and everything that you haven't done yet.
Family is obnoxious.
Really excited about the car, but the blood price. Ugh.
#silverproblems
League has kinda lost its appeal.
I didn't want it to, but you know, happens.
After getting Silver, I've been less inclined to play in general. Not because its not a challenge, but it just isn't as fun as it used to be and I don't know why. Everyone seems to be so serious about it.
Boo, I'm gonna climb the ladder tonight or Fuck these bronze scrubs, why the fuck is my team so fucking bad and I'm just sitting here like Hey guys, remember when this game used to be fun?
No.
I actually don't remember it being fun. Ever.
I remember getting really upset over shitty teams and thinking everyone looked down at me just because I didn't have a cool border.
I remember my ADC cursing me out because my comprehension of the game was not where it needed to be, so apparently I shouldn't be allowed to play the game ever.
I remember going 0-24-2 for about fifteen levels straight when I first joined because of troll smurf accounts.
I don't know, man.
I just want to have fun with this game now and I've been spending so much time trying to improve that I forgot what made it fun.
I didn't want it to, but you know, happens.
After getting Silver, I've been less inclined to play in general. Not because its not a challenge, but it just isn't as fun as it used to be and I don't know why. Everyone seems to be so serious about it.
Boo, I'm gonna climb the ladder tonight or Fuck these bronze scrubs, why the fuck is my team so fucking bad and I'm just sitting here like Hey guys, remember when this game used to be fun?
No.
I actually don't remember it being fun. Ever.
I remember getting really upset over shitty teams and thinking everyone looked down at me just because I didn't have a cool border.
I remember my ADC cursing me out because my comprehension of the game was not where it needed to be, so apparently I shouldn't be allowed to play the game ever.
I remember going 0-24-2 for about fifteen levels straight when I first joined because of troll smurf accounts.
I don't know, man.
I just want to have fun with this game now and I've been spending so much time trying to improve that I forgot what made it fun.
I want you to see how love noticed.
Love when you know it won't work. Its like a huge race.
Let's cut to the chase.
And Love, I know the same routine, but you play the same old thing.
Love. Love, whoa.
And I know you used to lock yourself up tight. I used to love you with all my might.
Love. Love, whoa.
Now you aren't happy with your broken promises. I told you to leave and you won't be missed.
I want you to see how love noticed.
Let's cut to the chase.
And Love, I know the same routine, but you play the same old thing.
Love. Love, whoa.
And I know you used to lock yourself up tight. I used to love you with all my might.
Love. Love, whoa.
Now you aren't happy with your broken promises. I told you to leave and you won't be missed.
I want you to see how love noticed.
"I changed my twitpic so people know that I support them. You can be all cynical if you want, but I don't care."
An hour later, he changes it back. God, this guy is obnoxious.
If he wasn't such an obvious attention-whore, I wouldn't even fucking care. But dear god, he's obnoxious.
Life Felt So Good Today
I was walking to work today, late (as usual), but for the first time in the longest time I felt happy.
It was strange.
oh shit. I forgot racism was still a thing.
"Wow. Its like you're actually black today."My coworker said this to me today. I took out my braids last night because needed to get them redone today, so went to work with it styled naturally.
There were a bunch of comments, nothing I'm really not used to, I guess (ignoring the fact someone straight out said "I guess I just don't understand black people's hair") but it still really bothers me. I shouldn't have to deal with that shit at work.
I want to give props to people for not trying to touch my hair, but damn, if there is one thing white people love more than their own hair, its commenting on black people hair. Can I just carry around a copy of "Good Hair" at all times so I can educate a bitch?
League of Lamentations
Played three two games in a row with Tantman. I tried to focus; super tired from work, but need to keep on if I want to even start considering gold rank. We lost both of them. He blames me and, to be honest, I don't give a fuck. If he didn't carry half the team, I wouldn't even play with him because he just bitches and moans so.much.
To be fair, he is like ten (lol, not really) fourteen? Bothers me more that he has a better elo than me AND is younger, but I guess that's how it goes sometimes?
/salt
The unforgivable thing here is dissing Tristana and calling her "the most useless character in League of Legends ever". That is straight up elitist bullshit right there. AP Trist has some of the best ratios in the game, ignoring Nunu for a second, and her range is vastly superior than 95% of every ADC ever created. Can we just take a second to also talk about her passive which allows her to harrass enemies with just minion kills? MAGIC DAMAGE EVEN. Why does an ADC need to scale with magic damage, you ask? BECAUSE TRISTANA JUST FUCKING CAN, that's why.
Okay. So clearly, I am upset about this, but I'm going to do the adult thing and pretend like I'm not bothered by it at all and just continue to use this kid to get me closer to my goal.
Sorry, but not really, bro.
Resolutions
Doing a pretty terrible job at my resolutions this year. Supposed to be cranking out a vlog every week and keeping on top of updating these things.
Cest la vie. I've never been a very focused person anyway...
An End to an Era
Found out an old high school classmate died three days ago from a drug overdose. Heroin, to be precise. I've got an extremely strange feeling about this.
Spent an hour or so talking to Monica about it.
I fucking love Momo.
Spent an hour or so talking to Monica about it.
...like even if we weren't close with these people it hurts a lot, cause you still were in such close proximity with them all the time, like you shared so much of your daily schedule with them. that's why I think it's so whack when people are like "oh but you weren't close to them" [or] "why are you sad"And it made me feel better because I understood why I was feeling so terrible. It made me feel better to know that she understood.
I fucking love Momo.
Midterms are DEATH
Somethings gonna give, and that something was work. I was ten minutes late this morning.
The worst part is that I could have easily been on time, I just didn't want to get up this morning.
Phone is off till next Monday so I really hope no one important tries to call me or anything (not that anyone ever does).
Living in Current Excess
I wish Seth would hurry up so that I can spend money I don't have on something I don't need. Gosh.
Real talk? Super excited about this 3DS. I'll post some picts later, but with Pokemon X&Y coming out later this year, I can't afford to not buy it from this dude at $180. The other option was getting it from Brian and taking some Gamestop credit for games, but he has a habit of giving me defective items. Don't trust it. At all.
Currently just sitting at B&N waiting for class to start and attempting to not spam Seth's phone with calls. If only he had texting capability like all us normal humanbeings.
Real talk? Super excited about this 3DS. I'll post some picts later, but with Pokemon X&Y coming out later this year, I can't afford to not buy it from this dude at $180. The other option was getting it from Brian and taking some Gamestop credit for games, but he has a habit of giving me defective items. Don't trust it. At all.
Currently just sitting at B&N waiting for class to start and attempting to not spam Seth's phone with calls. If only he had texting capability like all us normal humanbeings.
Fricking Finally
Spending tonight getting excessively drunk and watching Battlestar Galactica. No regrets, none at all.
Now if you'll excuse me, I have some livetweeting to do.
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