I'M SICK. SOMEBODY GIVE ME SOUP.
Dem Feels
God, I missed talking to him. He's the reason I love going back home. He makes home, "home".
I missed talking to him so much.
Visually, he's nothing special. A six on the best of days.
BUT DEAR SWEET BABY AANG, HIS MIND IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
I made a very special point to isolate him and just talk, just so that I could listen to him talk.
His voice.
His speech patterns.
His thoughts.
All of it. I love it.
Yeah, love. Its attractive.
I remember when I used to hesitate the use that word to say how I felt about him (AND I STILL DO) just because I was scared that he would know that I actually meant it. I worried he would notice that I changed my voice when I mumbled "I love you so much" and realize its was different from when I said that to everyone else. I worried he would notice I meant it.
He'll always be out of my reach, though. I ruined it.
I ruin everything. I don't think its subconsciously on purpose, but I sabotage it.
For now, I'll just stand on the sidelines and watch. You know, in a totally non-creepy way, of course.
I'M NOT WEIRD.
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I missed talking to him so much.
Visually, he's nothing special. A six on the best of days.
BUT DEAR SWEET BABY AANG, HIS MIND IS SO BEAUTIFUL.
I made a very special point to isolate him and just talk, just so that I could listen to him talk.
His voice.
His speech patterns.
His thoughts.
All of it. I love it.
Yeah, love. Its attractive.
I remember when I used to hesitate the use that word to say how I felt about him (AND I STILL DO) just because I was scared that he would know that I actually meant it. I worried he would notice that I changed my voice when I mumbled "I love you so much" and realize its was different from when I said that to everyone else. I worried he would notice I meant it.
He'll always be out of my reach, though. I ruined it.
I ruin everything. I don't think its subconsciously on purpose, but I sabotage it.
For now, I'll just stand on the sidelines and watch. You know, in a totally non-creepy way, of course.
I'M NOT WEIRD.
dat caaaaaaahr
Fuck. The worst thing about going home is family. Not the first five minutes, when you're happy to be in a familiar situation, its the second hour when your mother starts probing you about your love life and your failures and everything that you haven't done yet.
Family is obnoxious.
Really excited about the car, but the blood price. Ugh.
#silverproblems
League has kinda lost its appeal.
I didn't want it to, but you know, happens.
After getting Silver, I've been less inclined to play in general. Not because its not a challenge, but it just isn't as fun as it used to be and I don't know why. Everyone seems to be so serious about it.
Boo, I'm gonna climb the ladder tonight or Fuck these bronze scrubs, why the fuck is my team so fucking bad and I'm just sitting here like Hey guys, remember when this game used to be fun?
No.
I actually don't remember it being fun. Ever.
I remember getting really upset over shitty teams and thinking everyone looked down at me just because I didn't have a cool border.
I remember my ADC cursing me out because my comprehension of the game was not where it needed to be, so apparently I shouldn't be allowed to play the game ever.
I remember going 0-24-2 for about fifteen levels straight when I first joined because of troll smurf accounts.
I don't know, man.
I just want to have fun with this game now and I've been spending so much time trying to improve that I forgot what made it fun.
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I didn't want it to, but you know, happens.
After getting Silver, I've been less inclined to play in general. Not because its not a challenge, but it just isn't as fun as it used to be and I don't know why. Everyone seems to be so serious about it.
Boo, I'm gonna climb the ladder tonight or Fuck these bronze scrubs, why the fuck is my team so fucking bad and I'm just sitting here like Hey guys, remember when this game used to be fun?
No.
I actually don't remember it being fun. Ever.
I remember getting really upset over shitty teams and thinking everyone looked down at me just because I didn't have a cool border.
I remember my ADC cursing me out because my comprehension of the game was not where it needed to be, so apparently I shouldn't be allowed to play the game ever.
I remember going 0-24-2 for about fifteen levels straight when I first joined because of troll smurf accounts.
I don't know, man.
I just want to have fun with this game now and I've been spending so much time trying to improve that I forgot what made it fun.
I want you to see how love noticed.
Love when you know it won't work. Its like a huge race.
Let's cut to the chase.
And Love, I know the same routine, but you play the same old thing.
Love. Love, whoa.
And I know you used to lock yourself up tight. I used to love you with all my might.
Love. Love, whoa.
Now you aren't happy with your broken promises. I told you to leave and you won't be missed.
I want you to see how love noticed.
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Let's cut to the chase.
And Love, I know the same routine, but you play the same old thing.
Love. Love, whoa.
And I know you used to lock yourself up tight. I used to love you with all my might.
Love. Love, whoa.
Now you aren't happy with your broken promises. I told you to leave and you won't be missed.
I want you to see how love noticed.
"I changed my twitpic so people know that I support them. You can be all cynical if you want, but I don't care."
An hour later, he changes it back. God, this guy is obnoxious.
If he wasn't such an obvious attention-whore, I wouldn't even fucking care. But dear god, he's obnoxious.
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